I’m struggling to work out why it is that I find her difficult. I suppose it is something to do with her lack of acknowledgement when I send her what she requires and the hoops I have to go through to get her to respond. Is is just about ego though? Is there more to my struggles with her than feeling like I am unimportant to her? After all, do I really care what she thinks? There’s a sharpness to her that challenged me from the start. She blows hot and cold. It’s a microcosm of that other relationship in which I was also an outsider. I tried too hard, I suspect, but there was no script. As there isn’t with this woman. Must I just accept that we do things differently? Is that the way toward grace?
