They come in the wee small hours. And then there is the news with all that bad stuff to further increase them. It is mostly about how I will manage once he is gone. He says it is useless to worry, and he is right, but it is hard to stop. I have worried since I was a child, and do not know how to stop. Not now. I must just live with it, try to breathe, put in place all I can and then trust that all will come right. Mostly, it does.
