I know why I do it, though I won’t bore you with it now. Needless to say it’s from long ago, when my sense of autonomy was shakier than it is today. Though it is still shaky, hence my trying too hard to keep those whom I rely on sweet. It doesn’t work. And she is particularly unresponsive to cajoling. Heigh ho, it happened and it will happen again. And then, once it is over, I can return to my cave.
